ugh, what now?

I haven’t written anything on this account for a while. Instead of getting up and ready for work I’m typing this post in my bed on my phone. (That will account for all the inevitable stupid mistakes that show up.) I did have weekly Sunday updates on my alt account (Tina Ann I think last I updated it), only I’m not sure she’s me either…

I don’t feel like Justin, or a Tina, or a Kimberly, or an Ann, or a robo sapien, or anything at all really. (I know what it says on the Cologuard box). Mom can joke about “midlife crisis” but this is kind of a big deal. At least the last thing I want is for my job to define who I am but haha capitalism go brrr…

It doesn’t help that it’s clear that the country I live in is now a rotting corpse that smells like xenophobia, homophobia, transphobia, malignant capitalism, and fascism. Oh and they’re gonna send the troops next door to my mom and dad and brother…cool. I guess where I am isn’t currently important enough to be on the radar yet. I guess people are trying to protest tomorrow but “no kings” seems off. How about the Polish-Lithuanian Commonwealth? They seemed pretty advanced. Elect a king and he better behave or he gets the boot. Oh and everyone could do whatever religion they wanted. Kinda cool for 1500-1700.

The worst part is I’m definitely someone who would sit in my condo and say ‘haha trans memes funny’ while the world burns. So much for maturity and wisdom at 46.

I know some of you have it way worse than I do and I wish I could help in some substantial way. Maybe tap into my new church lady powers? I don’t think just getting a swamp witch dress (not due until Monday) does anything on its own.

Anyway today work, tomorrow coffee with Amanda…but I’ll probably have to spill my nonbinariness right away to her. It would be cool if she’s really openminded.

Anyway just a note to let you know the earth hasn’t swallowed me up yet. byyye!